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_k_. S*n* ng* b* s* _k_? *s* s*y*ng n*p*k*b**t, n*p*k*-m**l*g*, n*p*k*-m*p*gb*g*y, *t s*b* k* *ll-*n-*n*-p*ck*g*-d**l n* b*b**. *ng m*g*nd* s* k*ny* *y d*m*nd*ng s*y*. T*m* n* d*m*nd*ng s*y*. H*nd* s*y* m*k*s*l*n*n d*h*l l*ng d*n.... d*h*l *m**b*g d*n s*y*. Y*ng b*n*b*g*y n*y* p*r* k*y L.*._L*k*rs *y s*br* s*br*. *t *lm*st f**ls l*k* n* t* t*k* f*r gr*nt*d *ng mg* s*cr*f*c*s, *ff*rts, p*t**nc* *nd p*rs*v*r*nc* n*y* p*r* d*n s* L.*._L*k*rs. M*ns*n n*g-*y* s* _k_ n* m*g *n*m k*m* (n*g-*y* s* bry*n), m*y *n**l*g**n *k*ng d*l*w*ng b*t* n**n mg* p*ns*n k*. p*r* f*rst t*m* k*ng m*k*k* *n*m*n s* _k_ *l* *ft*r * h*ndr*d y**rs. S* * ch*s* th* l*tt*r. D* *k* n*g s*s* n**n. P*r*ng l*h*t ng n**p*n n* k* n* *n**s*p t*w*ng n*g t* t*xt k*m*... n*ng g*b* n* y*n n*g m*t*r**l*z* b*gl*. S* n*g*ng *s*f*l d**n *ng p*g*g*ng d*m*nd*ng n*y*. *ng n*k*t* k*ng m*g*nd*ng s*d* n* _k_ s* s*t**t**n n* *t* *y n* v* v*l** n*y* *ng m*t*g*l n* s*m*h*n n*l* n* L.*._L*k*rs. H*nd* n*y* b*st* b*st* p*k*k*w*l*n y*n. K*ng *l*m n*ng l*l*k* y*n s*g*r*d*ng d* k* m* t* t*k* f*r gr*nt*d. S*br* ng* s*y* k*ng m*gm*h*l, p*t* *b* n*m*h*l n*y*. [*y b*r* l*ng]. B*kt*m* s*y* ng s*r*l* n*y*ng c*rc*mst*nc*. H*nd* s*y* m*s*m*. H*nd* *k* p*p*y*g n* m*s*m* s*y* d*h*l n*n*n*w*l* *k* s* k*ny* k*h*t p*p*n*, *lth**gh h*nd* t*t**s s* 95 p*rc*nt *ng t*w*l* k* s* k*ny* s* p*n*h*n ng*y*n d*h*l m*r*m* s*y*ng t*n*t*g* p*. K*h*t s*g*r* g*n*t* k*n*l*b*s*n s* *k*n. L*h*t ng b*b** m*y h*n*h*n*p s* m*n*m*h*l n*y*. *ng k*w*w*ng s* _k_ *y h*nd* n*b*b*gy*n ng *tt*nt**n, *r*s *t wh*tn*t n* L.*._L*k*rs. *t* ng*y*n *ng *dv*s* k* s* *y*. *l*m*n m* k*ng m*s*y* p* s*y* k*h*t h*nd* k* n*y* n*b*b*gy*n ng s*p*t n* *r*s. [k*l*k*h*n n*m*n n* m*h*l*n m* s*y* p*g g*n*t*]. *l*t. *l*t. *l*m*n m* k*ng m*s*y* p* R*N s*y* k*h*t h*nd* k* n*y* n*b*b*gy*n ng s*p*t n* *r*s. Ng*k ng*k ng*k. m*l*k*s *ng l**b k* n* s*b*h*n t*, p*r* s* L.*._L*k*rs *ng l*l*k*. s*y* *ng d*p*t l*m*p*t s*y*. d*mm*t *ng y*b*ng k*. G*m*...*k* *ng m*s*s*b* k* h*nd* k* * d* d*sr*g*rd *ng mg* p*n*r*md*m n* _k_ s* *k*n. K*mb*g*, g*l*ng *k* s* p*gk* d*wn s* *s*ng b*b** d*n. T*p*s b*gl* s*y*ng d*m*t*ng s* g*l*d g*l*d k*. *m**l*g*d. H*h*. B*r* l*ng. B*st* y*ng b*tt*m l*n* ... s*b*h*n n* n*t*n n* sh* *ls* m*d* m* k*nd *f sp*c**l. T*t** y*n. P*r* n* r*n k*m*ng n*g*ng k*m* s* mg* l*nd**n n* n*ngy*r* k*h*t h*nd* k*m*. S*y* y*ng n*g*ng c*r* k* s* mg* t*m*s n* n*l*l*mb*y *k*. Sh*n* sh*r* n*y* s* *k*n mg* pr*bl*m* n*y* s* p*m*ly* (y*ng *b*). H*l*s l*h*t ng g*n*g*w* n*y* *r*w *r*w *l*m k* ng*y! Y*ng mg* g*m*k n*y* w*th h*r fr**nds w*l*, b*gl*ng *m**w* n*l*ng s*y* m*g-*s*. w*l* m*n l*ng n*gh*h*t*d s* k*ny*. g*st*ng g*st* k* s*n* k*ng *nd*n l*ng *k*. wh*h*h*h*.n*t*w* *k* n* n*k* b*g*y *k* ng sm*ll t*m* *t t*p*cs t*ngk*l s* n*rs*ng s* k*ny*. Y*ng mg* *n*p*n k*ng n*rs*ng r*v**w n* s*ftw*r* d* k* n* n*b*g*y. *t mg* n*rs*ng *-b**ks. bw*h*h*. T*ng*n* l*h*t ng k*w*nt* m*r*n s*y*. L*h*t ng t*xt m*p* s*nt*, m*p* j*k* t*m*, m*p* gr**n m*r*n y*ng s* _k_. L*h*t d*n ng mg* n*k*k*p*ng p*s*r*p ng f**l*ng n* k*t*w*g*n p*r* s* *k*n m*r*n. B*st* y*n n* y*n. m*r*m*ng p* k*s* k*s*ng n*l*l*m*n. p*ksh*t. W*l* k*y* *k*ng m*b*g*y s* k*ny* p*r* t*xt l*ng t*l*g* n* k*l*k*h*n. P*r* k* k*s*h*n d*n. P*r* mg* k*t*ng*h*n *t *ks*d*nt* k*. D* k* n*r*md*m*n n* n* *st*bl*sh k* *ng s*r*l* k* s* k*ny* *n * phys*c*l w*y. P*r*ng *sp*r*t* s*nt*s l*ng *k* s* p*l*g*d n*y*, s* b*g n*y*. N* n*k*k*n*g s* k*ny* s* mg* k*w*nt*ng *ks*d*nt* n*y* r*n k*l* b*tch, ch*ck**. Mg* t*m* n* n*s*s*g*s**n s*y* ng c*rt s* gr*c*ry. mg* w*l*ng w*l* n* k*w*nt* l*ng. t*p*ng *ng br*nd n*y* h*n*s *t pl*yt*x. s*m*b*t s*b*t n* mg* d*m*t s* *rtw*rk s* k*ny*. mg* c**nc*d*nc*s s* s**c*d*, s* sp*wn. w*****! mg* g*m*k n*y* w*th r*z*, bry*n *nd r*n*ld. mg* *nl*rg*d lymph n*d*s n* k*w*nt*? -> *ng s*r*p ng k*w*nt*ng t*, t*p*ng n*k*k*t* k* y*ng p*g*g*ng v*ln*r*bl* n*y*. W*l* g*st* k* s*n* n* k*h*r*p k* s*y* h*b*ng n*g k* k*w*nt* s*y* ng mg* g*n*t*. mg* *v*ryd*y r*m*nd*rs n* p*n*p*k**n k* n* d*h*l *r*s n* ng p*gk**n. n* *ppr*c**t* k* y*ng mg* sm*ll t*lk n* y*n. Y*ng mg* p*g *pd*t* n*y* s* *nl*n* t*mb*y*n n*y*, mg* b*g*ng p*ct*r*s *v*ryt*m* m*y b*g* s*y* ... *p*p*k*t* n*y* s*gl*t s* *k*n. T*p*s b*b*r*h*n d*n! k*ng t*m* *ng p*k*r*md*m k*, *n* *pd*t* n*y* y*n p*r* s* *k*n (*h*h* *ng k*p*l ng m*kh*). D*t* k*s* w*l*ng l*m*n y*n, *s*ng p*ct*r* l*ng ng s*xy n* p*w*t n* b*s* b*s* *t gr*y *ng k*l*y n* p*r*ng m*y b*ngk* b* y*n. h*h*.!!! L*m*p*t d*n s*y* s* *k*n s* *nl*n* n* p*r**n. T*p*ng n*gt*tr*b*h* *k* k*p*g n*g *nl*n* n* y*ng s* _k_ * b* b*zz *k*. N*k*k* *nsp*r* k**g*d s* w*rk p*g n*g b*zz n* s*y*. H***y. w*l*ng w*l*! y*ng mg* p*n*g*n*p k* s* y*. s* *t*n! w*l*ng w*l* d* k* n* *k*k*w*nt*. n*p*k*p*ksh*t *t s*y*ng. h*h*. T*ng*n* k*ng d* d*h*l s* mg* l*ny* m* n* "*s*s b*l* b*t *m gl*d t* h**r / r**d th*t n*k*k*p*gp*ng*t* ng s* m*ch. * fr*nc*s m*t*p*s k* n* k*s* h*h*" *r "*t*w* n*l*ng m*n* s*g*r* n*t*n *nd s** wh*t w*ll h*pp*n". *r "t*y* n* *t m*gb*k*sy*n s* h*ngk*ng".... *h w*l* t*l*g* *k*ng *b*ng s**rc* ng m*t*v*t**n! S*l*m*t t*l*g*! N*ng n* s* B*g*** p* *k* g*st* k* p* t*l*g* t*m*g*l d*n p*r* s* k*ny*. P*r* *l*ts t*l*g* mg* n*ngy*r*. H*h* n*s* *b*ng mg* l*g*r k*m* p*r* f**l*ng k* n*s* t*b* k* l*ng s*y* p*l*g*. N*s*n*y *k* s* k*k*t*w*g n*y*'t l*h*t. K*h*t m*d*l*ng *r*w p*l*ng t*t*w*g n* y*n. B*g* m*t*l*g t*t*w*g d*n. H*b*ng g*m*g*m*k *k* t*t*w*g d*n. S*br*ng *mn*pr*s*nt n*y* k*h*t m*gk*l*y* k*m*. Mg* m*rn*ng *nd *v*n*ng *nd **rly m*rn*ng, l*t* n*ght gr**t*ngs. s*kt* t*l*g* s*y*. *b* s*y*. M*t*g*l *l* t*l*g* b*g* *k* m*k*k*l*l* ng k*t*l*d n*y* m*gb*g*y ng *r*s *t m*s*h* (h*h*). F*r *ll th*s* *b*v* m*nt**n*d , h*nd* l*ng g**ng-*w*y-fl*w*rs *ng d*p*t p*r* s* k*ny*. T*ng*n* t*l*g*. S*n* k*ng *n* y*ng n* try m*ng g*w*n s* *k*n g*w*n m* *l*t k*y L.*._L*k*rs. S*n* b* n*m*ng h*nd* m* m* m*t*v*t* d*n? * m*t*v*t* m* s*y* s* p*g-**r*l n*y*. *ng k*l*t h*nd* k* s*y* n*h*l*k*n m*n l*ng. S*y*mpr*! F**l*ng k* ng* t*l*g* s* s*r*l* k* h*nd* p* *k* *st*bl*sh*d s* k*ny* n*n!
* d*l* n* r*n ng g*st* k* p*n*h*h*r*p*n *k* ng b*b** b*g* n*y* *k* s*g*t*n. T*p*ng s* *n*m*n, h*nd* k* t*l*g* s*y* **kb*y*n. S*k* k* n*l*ng s*y* *n*kb*y*n wh*n sh* r*st*d h*r h**d s* sh**ld*rs/b*ck k*. *nt*ng* t*ng* k* k*s* *t g*st* k* p* *'ll "g* thr**gh h*r" th* h*rd w*y. *y*w k* t*l*g* ng m*b*l*s*n, f*r th* r**s*n s*n* n* h*nd* k* s*y* * t* t*k* f*r gr*nt*d p*g k*m* n*! H*h* p*r*ng *k* y*ng s*s*g*t s* s*r*l* k* *. k*p*l k*! h*h*. H*nd*, b*st* *gr** *k* s* * -j*st-w*nn*-t*k*-*t-n*c*-*nd-sl*w c*nc*pt. h*h*h*h*! Bw*h*h*h* k*ng *l*m k* l*ng t*l*g* n* m*y bf k*! W*l*ng w*l* ch*m*ns*ng p* *k* s* l*gs m* *t s*n*b*k*n h*n*p*n k*l*t* m*. B*t* k*h*t l*s*ng n* *k* n*n h*nd* k*t* n*h*w*k*n s* mg* m*l*gr*s*ng p*rt* ng k*t*w*n ng t**. b*t* n*l*ng t*l*g*. k*ns*nsy* k* p* y*n p*g s*k*l*! w*h**h *ng k*l*t! *r p*g s*n*w*rt* *k* m*g*ng k*m* p*g n*gk*t**ng h*nd* t*l*g* n*g *mpr*v* *ng k*l*b**n n*l* ng m*h*l n*y*ng b*yfr**nd. * h*p* n*t*r*lly l*ng t*l*g* m*g fl*w *ng mg* b*h*y n*m*n. *h w*ll, *h w*ll.